Hmm been doing alot of soul searching recently ..And come to the conclusion ..finally lol
That i need to grow up ! took me long enough didn't it only 35 years :-S ..
I'm unorganised..unruly and generally acting as if I'm a teen .. no harm i admit but it isn't doing me any favors in life and making things complicated for myself... and i cant be doing with complicated been doing that far to long.
I'm not going to change everything ,just organise myself more ..and make life more simple as i do make it hard for myself most the time lol.

Hey life's for living ..il be dead along time to sit n sweat the small stuff ..but if i just wake up and take hold of my own life and not let it dwindle away and get my self in a mess ..il have more time to enjoy it.

Back again

Back again blogging after a while of being unable to share things or wanting to i suppose ..all to complicated to explain.. maybe i will one day who nos ...

Life's ok at the moment ,missed having a good old blog about my random life lol sad ay.
Need to get my arse in gear for a job focused interview :-S hmm great NOT !
But hey ho...

Lonely girl

Staring at the top sheet
Listening to my hearth beat
Wondering how to say it
Playing over one track
Wanting you to come back
Want to have you here

Lying on a cold sheet
Jump into my car seat
Drive down to the river
Nightlight its reflecting
Somehow I'm expecting
Your voice in my ear

I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the thigs that you do

Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl


Lying in the long grass
Watching as the clouds pass
Hands held in silence
Your arms right around me
Feeling glad you found me
Feeling like I'm home

Wish you would remember
April to september
Wanting to be near me
Racing for the sunrise
Staring into my eyes
You and I alone

I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the thigs that you do

Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl


Lay back in my own dream
playback on a big screan
You and me together
Why give up a love found
Wish that I could write down
What you mean to me

I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
I wish that I could tell you
All the thigs that you do

Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl again
Come back 'cause I'm gonna be a lonely girl

(so lonely... so lonely.... so lonely... so lonely...)

Was it so wrong
No you said you loved me
Could ït be so easy
Just to walk away

Dreams part 2

Lol now I'm mad ..was squirrels last night lol amongst other things :-S and apparently it means-

-A squirrel could represent a comfortable friend, someone you enjoy having fun with.

-squirrel in a dream could also be pointing out the importance of planning ahead. Even if you want to have fun in your life, always be looking towards the future. Make sure you spend some part of your time preparing for the future, so that when it comes, you're ready.

-hiding something

Hmm :-S ..il look forward to to nights dream lol ..weiiiiiiirrrrrrrrd lol

Dreams

I keep having the weirdest dreams lol :-S.. I'm into dream analysis but mine don't make sense as in what they mean.
Think its just whats in my head at the moment to be honest